February 2012
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What a mess we have made, love- standing on street corners and laughing at passerby. We stopped questioning life’s insanity, going with the flow instead of struggling against it. Yet we have not moved as we remained stagnant in the waters of our adoration. Tell me, darling- what do you fear? Is it losing me? Tell me, dear, because I am afraid that I do not know anymore. Who is the you that...
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Today we struggled,
Living in the palms
Of hands that knew
Not how to keep in
Touch through nights
When the covers got
Cold and the wind blew
In frosty echoes of
Midsummer air.
Boy Wander (ing): Whisper. →
boywandering:
Whisper. Whisper those words to me, the-three-words-with-eight-letters-three-syllables-one-meaning that I’ve been craving to hear from you. But here’s the catch. I only want to hear it when your heart is completely into it, when you’ve thrown yourself into this crazy abyss with reckless abandon, with no strings or reservations tying you or holding you back but instead that you...
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just another title.
I will not have access to WiFi for the next 3-ish days, so I will queue some stuff for you all to read while I am gone. I hope you have fantastic weekends!
Much love <3
-S.J.
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I want to lay
Beneath
The night sky
And
Watch the stars
As
They fall from
Cracks
In the moon.
“When your mother hits you, do not strike back. When the boys call asking your...”
– “Unsolicited Advice to Adolescent Girls With Crooked Teeth and Pink Hair,” Jeanann Verlee (via wewantrevolutiongirlstylenow)
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I watch as you carve into your ivory skin with a razor blade made of shadows. A trail of weeping blood flows effortlessly out of the cut you make. You reach a level somewhere inside where the pain doesn’t hit you, and you sit watching the blood fall to the floor in little drips. Crimson traces its way down your arm, like a road map marking where the next exit is. Silently, I plead for you...
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The pain is laced with pleasure,
As your fingers push and pull me
Together again while we come
Into each other, drawn by the
Electricity coursing through our
Bones, tied together by the aching
Need echoing faintly in our moans.
Anonymous asked: I absolutely adore your most recent pieces of writing! keep them coming. (:
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They like to watch us,
Degrading us from
The outside in, wondering
When it is that we’ll give in
To the drugs and the booze,
O.D-ing outside while the
Football team prepares to lose.
If only they knew
What it was like
To be me and you.
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Dinner, then a nap, then maybe this research paper I’ve been staring at for an hour and a half.
Ciao my dears. I’ll spam your dash with words later… :P
-S.J.
Anonymous asked: can i give you topics to write about that i feel like you could do a really good job with? i jus want to hear somethings in someone elses words rather than my own writeing. some topics are: suicide, sex and the regret, first date and how it all goes wrong, abt your best friend, and why you worry.
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i hope i do you justice.
I’m sitting here
Shooting darts
In the dark,
Forming words
On targets
Unseen.
All I have
To aim with
Are these feelings
That I get
When I think of
The things
You are asking of me.
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I know you think I’ll judge you, if you show any empathy towards these words that I’m bleeding. You think I will see your secrets that you have tried so hard to bury. And I’m not going to lie to you- I probably will. You should know by now though, that everything you say (or don’t say to me) will come with me to my grave and live in secrecy. Your heart is one of the most...
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strokes of red
andthisiswhyimguarded:
Blue webs weave
Under snow white plains
Hidden behind sleeves
Of homespun disdain;
Pearly white ridges
Cap the snow
Rising like bridges
To the pain down below.
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You’re gone
And all I’m left with
Is maybe.
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regrets.
They tell me I was wrong for enjoying the feel of your skin on mine. For reveling in the contact and never looking back. Their voices call out, commanding me to acknowledge that I am a stupid kid, doing things way over my head. Voices, their voices, like static radio chatter in my brain make me start to wonder if I was wrong again. Maybe I misread the look in your eyes. Maybe you fooled me with...
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I watch as you walk away and wonder if today will be the day. Will today be the beginning of the end of everything I knew with you? Will today start the horror of tears bringing rainfall in March? Will today begin with you, sitting here in class, and end with you, cut by broken glass? The pain is written on your face. I can see it. It hurts me to know that you don’t trust me enough to let me...
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Once, we sat beneath the shadows. Just you and me. I remember the cigarette you lit, burning on the gravel. Smoke drifting up and filling our nostrils. I never told you, did I- how good it felt to breathe in? How free I felt knowing I wasn’t the only one with an addiction. He called our names, do you remember? And we laughed when he left. I saw in your face how you always felt second best,...
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Standing alone, silent in a quiet crowd. At least, I think it’s quiet. I can’t hear past the roaring in my ears, the pain rushing past and threatening to drown what little laughter I have left. My eyes seek your face. I know I won’t find it. You left me- naked and alone beneath shattered light-bulbs and crumpled trash. That night was one of the best of my life. I lost track of...
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Your ghost haunts me as I walk through these hallways made of wooden beams and drywall. A flash of light brown hair and a grim gaze behind a tree. Hunched shoulders above sauntering legs around a corner. Mirrored glasses hiding cold eyes on the stairs.
You’re everywhere.Leave me in peace, without this tangled web of confusion when it comes to love and hate. Leave me, leave me. Let me...
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against white plaster walls.
Your hands slide across pale curves of skin, tongue slipping through barriers of soft pink lips. Pushing and pulling, biting your way in. My Hands move up to push you away, palm to chest. Fingers curl in, betraying the barren need in this blasphemous wasteland. There is no give to you, softness only found between saliva and your cheek. Need fuels greed, feeding clawed kisses as you take and take,...
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stagnant.
We always stood
On the shoulder
Watching traffic
Rush past at 80
Barely wondering
If there was more
Than this-
How is it going be
When we don’t
Know each other
Anymore?
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For a second, just a second, I thought you cared. Then you smiled, grimaced wickedly is more accurate, destroying any sense of well being that I had created at the sight of you; obliterating every happy thought, every good memory, with the shadows that hid behind your too-bright eyes.
Fall Into My Gravity: Crumbs →
fallthroughme:
I give out my love in teaspoons, but only to the sick, the frail, the mentally imbalanced—they are the ones who swallow my brand of affection, their Adam’s apple sinking down their throat as they they take what I’m offering so freely into their mouth, letting me soften around their lips and melt on the surface of their tongue. My edges flake like burnt sugar, crumbling and...
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and.
You whispered hurry
And so I flew
Straight to you,
Past the balcony
Filled with bright
Shiny things and I
Ran into your arms
And buried my face
In your broad chest
Inhaling your scent
And smiling knowing
Nothing had changed
Since I left.
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Just lay here with me. Please. Underneath the glow of stars pouring in from the window’s screen, lay with me. Hold me to your naked chest and let’s listen to the rush of breath that fills the silent spaces we’ve left. Embrace the feel of silken sweat soaked skin and just breathe. There is nowhere else we have to be, so just lay here with me. I love listening to your heart beat in...
whitenedcatsblackwhiskers:
There are days where the cold air seeps into my bones and chills my heart, making me feel as if the sadness and the loneliness will never go away.
And there are days where you are there to warm it right back up and make me feel as if I am the only one who matters, as if you care, as if you will always be right there beside me.
I like those days.
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I know it sounds
So damn cliche
But honestly honey
There is no place
I would rather be
Than in your arms
For eternity.
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Today is one of those days
Where nothing you do
Will be enough.
Burning Muse: align →
inkedribs:
You have spent too much time running parallel to too many people. You’re all heading in the same direction, building up walls to prevent an innocuous touch. Turning, breaking, changing—utterly unimaginable. You don’t know how to transform yourself, and neither does anybody else, but suddenly the similarities between their lives and yours have become suffocating, and running straight...
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i think i'll keep him.
I do not need him
To complete me,
For I am whole.
I do not need him
To rebuild me,
For I am not broken.
I do not need him
To support me,
For I am not weak.
But I do need him
Because I have
This heart you see,
That sometimes
Gets lonely and I
Rather enjoy his company.
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I may be poor, but I am one of the richest people...
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We speak in riddles
And broken sentences,
Leaving adjectives
Running senseless
About blank paper
Sleeves of pain
Like so many ants
Invading a picnic
Parade of mind food
Where bones are
Picked dry by letters
Made of bloody
Black ink, carved
From the marrow
Of our insides.
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Blood pours
From fountains
Letting red
Rivers run,
In a barren land
Where no sun
Is sung about
In days of
Eternal night.
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I am lost at sea,
Drowning, forsaken
In waves of sheets
And lonely fallen tears,
Wishing you were
Here with me
Because tonight
I just need
Some company to
Keep me while I sleep.
Tonight, I just need
To not be alone.
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We are holograms hiding
The shades of us that
Could be blinding, thereby
Binding us to a lost life of
Pure honest people
Where life is simple.
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We jump over
Railroad tracks,
Holding hands and
Never looking back,
Skipping past the parts
Where we stop
At forks in the road,
Arguing over
Which way to go.
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One time I
Thought of you
And me,
Past this point
Where we still
See eye to eye,
Past this moment
Where its
Nothing but the
Simple present.
I thought of us
Past now,
Into the future,
And dreamed up
A place for you
In my heart.
Mournful
thissilentstorm:
dark sky holds back tears sense of expectant sorrow hanging in the air
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I want you to want me-
Passionately,
Sweetly;
Completely part of you
When you’re part of me-
Within me.
I just need you to need me
Like its the last time
You’ll feel me
In your arms.
Love me.
Consume me.
Please
Fame.
flyhecried:
Here are my thoughts on fame on tumblr, I feel I should talk about it after ordinarywonder’s post about the subject.
Put simply-
I don’t want to be famous I just want to feel like I’m part of a family.
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We stand side by side
At the brink,
Moving blindly yet
Unafraid to hide
From the echoes
That scream
Past stitched up scars
And the shadows
In which beauty
Is marred.
Yet still we stand
Side by side
Unafraid with nothing
To hide.
“She writes like she’s starving and reads like she’s feasting.”
– R.D. Larson (via booksandnerds)
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Many apologies for the lack of words lately! I am very very busy (which doesn’t usually happen), so I probably will be unable to post much until tomorrow.
I hope you all are having great days!
Much love <3
-S.J.
dy-lm:
Bon Iver: Skinny Love
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